Have you ever felt like the Universe is trying to tell you something? It may have started with the tiniest of whispers; which you chose to ignore. Then the Universe’s voice gets a little bolder, loader and stronger. So much so, that you start thinking that maybe, just maybe something doesn’t feel right. Yet you ignored the warnings and talked yourself out of it. Finally, the Universe grabs you by the shoulders, yells in your face and gives you a great big “WAKE the F#@* UP and STOP this CRAZINESS!” shake!!
Well, if you haven’t guessed already, that happened to me! I think I’m still suffering from a severe case of “Universal Wake Up Call Whiplash”.
Let’s be honest, I had more than a few lessons to learn. Let me tell you, some of those lessons I had to repeat more than a few times. Apparently I was NOT getting it! It was time for the Universal shake down/take down.
The biggest lesson I needed to learn was to stop waiting and start living.
Ouch! Seriously, that was painful. Wait a minute, wasn’t I living? Or was I just going through the motions and living a life that wasn’t authentic to what I wanted or deserved?
As it turns out, I was waiting… Waiting for soooo many things. Wanna know what I was waiting for?
Here’s the list:
Waiting for my kids to get a little bit older to become more independent, so that I could pursue my career and wouldn’t feel guilty for leaving them. Waiting for my husband to return home from his very frequent business trips. Which took him away from home almost 9 months out of the year for the last 12 years. (Yep, that’s a biggie.) Waiting for my business to launch and become successful; to then turn around and put my business on hold while we moved our family to Korea for a year and a half. Waiting to come back to Canada and RE-Launch my business. Waiting for the “right teachers”. Waiting for the right clients. Waiting for myself to acknowledge my own self worth. Waiting to forgive myself. Waiting to have the courage to say enough is enough! Waiting for someone to make a decision. Waiting to feel safe. Waiting to be myself. Waiting to be truly happy. Waiting to be loved.
How is it possible that I’ve been waiting this long to finally realize that I’ve been settling for less then I deserve?
Well, NO MORE! This girl is sick and tired of waiting. I’ve decided to give myself the gifts that I’ve been waiting to receive.
I’ve learned that if you can’t love yourself, then how can you expect anyone else to love you the way that you deserve? Yes, I’m going to be selfish; and guess what? There is nothing wrong with that! I’m going to celebrate ME! I will become a better mother, partner, friend and business owner, by knowing myself better and living an authentic life.
Most of you know that I turned the BIG 3-5…. Ok, ok, it’s not the BIG ONE, but for me, it felt like it was a pivotal year in so many ways. As I looked around at my empty beautiful house, I realized that this was not what I wanted. Have you ever been in a relationship where you felt alone? It’s truly the loneliest that I have ever felt… I can almost say that in that moment I felt abandoned.
Hello Universal shake down!!!
How much more time was I going to waste waiting? Hmmmm, as I write this, I’m wondering how many people are reading this and can totally relate?
Ok, now what?
In fully acknowledging the lessons that I have learned, I MUST take action. I can’t just sit back, hope and want these changes to happen. I need to change, to be bolder, daring, and braver; I have to take action!
Are you ready to hear my plan of attack?
Ok, here it is… it’s a 12 Month journey of self discovery and celebration!
Recently, my girlfriend sent me a quote that I had written a few years ago.
Here’s my quote:
“I have found the permission within myself to let my light shine. I have awakened dreams for my future that I thought were lost! I’ve taken back my power to protect myself and to feel safe and significant.”
When I read it, I cried. I asked myself, “Where did this girl go? What happened to her? How can I get her back?” Because, I really loved her!
I’m getting her back by doing something every month that I’ve always wanted to do, and yet never made the time or allowed myself to experience. Some challenges will be small and others are HUGE! Not like jumping out of a plane or anything! Actually, I wrote that off my list 6 years ago. LOL! This journey is really about honouring myself, my dreams and pushing myself to new levels.
You might be wondering why a Makeup Artist is blogging about her personal journey and posting it for the public to read?
I’ve been in the beauty industry for almost 10 years and I have worked with SO many women. I feel that many of us sacrifice so much of ourselves for others. We allow ourselves to stop dreaming and stop honouring our own personal truths. We put our lives on hold for everyone else and then expect them to make us happy, to make us feel loved and beautiful. I can’t tell you how many women have sat in my chair and shared their hopes, dreams and life challenges with me.
If only one person reads this blog and feels inspired to be brave and make the change that will honour themselves, then that will be truly amazing!
I feel true beauty begins on the inside and this journey will allow me to finally see the true beauty that lies within me. I hope that you will enjoy the lessons that I have learned and allow yourself to be Bold, Brave and Daring.
Stay tuned for my first challenge!